Alan was groggy the next morning they were itching for a cigarette but they tried to shake it alan went to the kitchen for a coffee to try and distract from the cravings of cigarettes they chugged the coffee pure black no sugar or creamer their heart was pounding with adrenaline their limbs shaking their breath quickened argos rushed to them they were having an autistic meltdown alan was hyperventilating then they threw up argos helped alan up and nin held their shoulders “alan are you okay?!” nin asked scaredly alan nodded vomit collecting on the floor “yeah it’s just nicotine withdrawals…i’m trying to quit” nin looked confused “why?” he asked tilting his head to the side alan then sighed “saddie’s been feeling sad so i’m trying to get better for her..” nin was awe struck he sighed hugging alan tightly alan felt a warm feeling in their heart alan sighs “argos are you alright?” alan asked concerned argos nodded rubbing his belly “yes me and the baby are fine” alan sighs in contempt “good” alan hugged argos tightly and nin joined the hug “you know you don’t have to quit smoking alan” argos said smiling warmly alan looked shocked “are you sure” argos nods “yeah you don’t have to quit something that’s not going to kill you” alan sighs “i wish you would’ve said that before i chucked my pack as hard as i could into the forest” they laughed and saddie hugged them tightly “morning daddys” she said still sleepy alan hugged her tightly “morning my dear” alan said their voice still shaking saddie turned her head to the side and had a confused look on her face which was a scrunched up frown “what’s wrong daddy?” she asked still making that scrunched up face alan shakes their head trying to shake off their blurred vision “nothing my sweet” alan said holding her like a child clinging to their favorite toy saddie smiled and giggled “you so silly daddy” alan had tears in their eye they didn’t know why though argos hugged alan his hands wrapped around alan’s waist argos could wrap his arms around alan’s waist and his hands could touch argos shivered “your so skinny..” alan tried to push it off “i’m just a small person” nin cut alan off “dear…have you been eating at all?...”  alan looked nervous “w-why yes o-of course i have been what a ridiculous question” nin cut alan off “i’m making you breakfast and you’re going to eat it all” alan sighs “alright dearest” they said clearly happy someone cared about their well being instead of their weight they hug nin warmly their body heating up to the feeling of nin’s skin on theirs alan sighs “i’m so grateful to have you all here with me”